A Taboo Worth 4 Years in Hell

I'll allow you a brief glimpse at my more base emotions...

You see, I was hanging our with this girl in our school. We usually chill at lunch and I sometimes pick her up and drop her off after school. It seems perfect. Actually, come to think of it, things are going too perfect...

So it came as no surprise to me that one day she suddenly became cold and started avoiding me. It went on for a while and I must admit that it did bother me a bit. But I let it slide. Life is too short to spend on sulking.

It would have been all good. I keep on living my life, she on hers, but then I started hearing the rumors floating in the air like the stench of a freshly rotting corpse...

She is kinda sseing this other guy. I was not bothered by this. It's normal for girls her age to be a bit... flirtatious...

Time went by again, not even 2 months have passed when i heard the OTHER rumor... It was brought to my attention by two of my not-so-close friends who noticed that I was everywhere with the girl not so long ago and wondered what was happening.

I just said that we were friends and asked them why the sudden interest. Their reply shocked me. I am a man who is seldom shocked, but this was too far... If I thought the smell of the previous rumor was a rotting corpse, then this is sulfur and brimstone... This is the stench of a hundred bodies in a closed room... with a slight hint of cinnamon...I could swear that I can hear the cries of a thousand souls crying out to me form below... It comforted me... but just a little...

Anyway, I heard that the girl was sorta seeing her professor in a certain difficult subject...

I hate to jump to conclusions but... HOW LOW CAN YOU FUCKING GO!!!!??? They are seen in campus always together and even outside! All to pass a fucking course!?

Well, the higher path would be too forgive and forget and move on... Wish them happiness were it absolutely true... I would be strive to be the higher man and move on... But one day I might just slip... and all hell would break loose... I have more in my repertoire than plain violence...

Till next time then...

Friday, August 29, 2008

A Rant

To see is to believe or so they say. Yet I believe in a God though no religion claims me. I merely see the wonders of his creation and I pause to admire his work despite what I'm doing. Do not judge me on my morality for I know that what I do is just and scoff not at my beliefs for they are mine and mine alone.

Look instead at your own hearts and ask yourself whether you are truly happy with what you see within yourself before you snarl and bite at other people's beliefs. Is the life you lead truly worth living? If not, then change it. You have the free will to do so. Do not let yourself be bound by society's views of right or wrong. What is important is what you feel about yourself.

Go then and change yourself to the image you want to see. For no one has the right to judge you save God himself.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Exams

So this is my finals week, but no pressure. I mean, I may be a senior in college, but I know I can breeze through everything just fine. My group mates and I have just gone through our systems simulation class presentation and I must say, I'm pretty pleased with the results. I'll post again tomorrow to record my examination ordeals.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008